I'm scared, terrified even. After all that I've been through in my career as a soldier not once have I had a lingering fear like this one. It paralyzes me to the core.
I'm afraid of having a tea party.
I look at my newest (and hopefully last) offspring and the thought of trying to raise her is scary. I'm one of two boys and I work in an all male profession. I'm surprised that my wife tolerates me because I don't understand females at all.
So what do I do? I've never been to a tea party or played with Barbie. I don't know how to pick out an "ensemble" or "accessorize". How will she relate to me? My boys are tough and I don't coddle their feelings. How am I supposed to ensure that my lack of sympathy doesn't crush her emotions?
Fear of the unknown is the highest hurdle that anyone will every face in a new situation or environment. It is my duty as a parent to take that fear and let it motivate me because time won't sit still and she is going to grow up and become a woman. It is my dream that when that happens she will say "my father had a major part in me becoming who I am today". Like any other challenge set before, I will put my best foot forward. Will it be enough?